Do you hear me now? Good!

I just accepted something into my soul tonight that changes everything, and as I am looking back over just the past week alone on how many times the Lord has repeated a particular message to me thru friends, scriptures, books and institute I smile and feel comforted for He didnt give up on sharing this message with me, He kept repeating himself until I understood His message that He so wanted me to learn.

"Whether we like it or not, our trials and struggles can tend to accelerate or push toward godliness." 

I have been so focused on dwelling in the past, feeling as if I need to be punished for my life and where it has gone, that I wasnt hearing/understanding what the Lord has been waiting for me to take into my heart.

It is such a releif, the truest weight off my shoulders realizing that my Savior has been patiently waiting for me to hear Him. He wants me to come back, He needs me to struggle so that I may accomplish what I came here to accomplish.

My Patriarchal blessing in the first paragraph tells me that my Heavenly Father is concerned for my wellfare and well-being, for I was instructed concerning my time upon the earth and the special mission I need to accomplish. Upon instruction of my special mission and the informing of the trials I would be faced with...I AGREED to the struggles explained to me and promised to strive with all my heart to remain faithful and positive.

Thank you God for not giving up on me...I understand now that its not meant to be easy. Thank you for the lessons I have learned thru sweat and tears.