Priesthood Blessings

I just want to share how grateful I am for Priesthood Blessings I have received in my life. I know if it were not for Priesthood holders and my faith in their blessings I would not be here today.
I remember when I was 12 years old I laid in a hospital bed knowing how close I was to leaving this earth... I was ready to go. I will tell you that my soul left my body and I watched my family speaking to nurses in the hall...I heard the nurse tell my dad I was not going to make it thru the night and he needed to prepare for that. I remember my dad calling my neighbor Ralph to ask him to come down to PCMC to assist him with a Blessing. I remember what I felt during that blessing, and I knew that it was my choice to leave this life or to continue on. I remember thinking of my mother already losing one child and how hard it would be for her to loose another. I remember deciding to stay.
This is why I struggle with bad choices I have made in my life. I KNOW the gospel is true, I know I would not be here if it were not for my faith that was so strong at age 12. And when I think of all the times I turned against my faith it makes me sad and I wonder how my Heavenly Father must feel as He watches me turn against Him after He allowed me to stay.
I choose to accept my past and I will strive to live by what I know is right.